Life goes on

Believe it or not ,it has been 6 years since I first saw you. It was not an easy phase. There were times when I felt like giving up . There were times that I felt like holding on . If they say life is easy , hear them not. Life is never easy. It's a challenge . When you feel like you can not take it anymore, that is the time you shall admit defeat. Death is imminent .

This year , I'm learning a lot about life in general. It's getting tough. I saw both of my grandmas fighting for life. In and out from operation room. One fighting with cancer , and the other one having renal failure. I was there with them from the start as I was the only one available during that difficult times . Allah has given me the chance to be part of it. I surely did not regret my decision to come back from Puncak Perdana earlier that I should.

There were times when I myself starts questioning the mishap. But my grandma said " Ni semua ujian afiq, Allah sayang kita, Dia nak hapuskan dosa kita" just before she went into the operation room to amputate a part of her body . I couldn't say a word. She is stronger than most of us. It gave me the strength  that I need.

Then , there were you. You have always be there for me through thick and thin . I promise , I won't let this slip . Much gratitude . Thanks.

Life goes on ...

Tantrum Tuesday !

Folks !
          Sometimes , kau tiba kat simpang yang uji kau punya pegangan .  You either make it or you ruin it altogether.  Like , when you dah besar panjang and your parents ask you to choose bidang yang kau suka. Come on laa , one year ago kau nak pergi tandas pon kena mintak kebenaran cikgu , now dah kena tentukan masa depan ? Oh my ~

Chillax , cari biskut ping pong  , rehat depan tv jap . It all starts with planning . You have to know how to make a viable plan to ensure that you smooth cruise along the road.  Tapi kan brader, mana ada plan yang tak ada turbulence ye dak ?  Yeah sure. Tapi mana lagi selamat , kau dah ada pilihan a . b dan c or kau just follow the flow. Ikut je mana ombak nak hanyutkan kau . What if finally you end up kat kampung lanun yang cannibal . Tak ke cari nahas ?

You'll reach the time when you are trying to find out who you really are. Trust me , sekarang kalau somebody ask you " Who are you ? " "Tell me a bit about yourself " . For sure most of us will end up making a perfect personality which doesn't really reflect ourselves . Why ?  Sebab kita tak pernah nak ambik kisah pasal diri kita sendiri. We tend to look up on people but not ourselves . A bit surprising right ?

This is why most of us lack with self confidence . We always feel inferior . So , know yourself a bit more. Find your traits and skills . Your weaknesses and shortfalls . Only then , you can decide on your future.

Dream

Shed the tears.
All you have now are memories,
for all that you've hope,
Gone.

Let it be lived tho,
never let go,
hold on,
I'm coming back home.

Even if then,
I am forgotten,
I'll stay long ,
longing for a dream.
My dream , You.

F.A

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